i'm doing it for a thrill.

Last night, laying in bed had the most serene atmosphere ever.

Laying back, blowing smoke rings into the light refelecting off my phone as I wrote.

All I wanted was you.

And I finally got you. Good things come to those who wait, right? Well I waited a somewhat tiring 12 months, and here you are. And there I was, shaking in my non existant boots that you were going to let me go quicker than I could say don't. I don't quite know what you see in me that has brought you to hold on to me ever so tightly, but p

lease keep holding, I adore it.

I sat on that train on the 1st of August, as nervous as anything, replaying over and over in my mind whether or not to run through the train do

ors and leap into your arms or just casually walk upto you and keep my cool with a simple hello. Meanwhile, I was doing my best to try and hide the stupid smile on my face from other people sitting around me. So I arrived, and I couldn't hold back, and finally felt you wrapped up in my arms, just without the overjoyed leap. Although, my stomach was doing backflips when I heard your voice. I was so content with walking by your side. I couldn't restrain from making a fool of myself, of course. Cracking stupid jokes and one liner's here and there. Anybody would fall overthemselves around of person of such grace.

I held you close to me all night, and those momen

ts before my lps finally touched yours, I could have sworn my heart stopped. My breathing was out of whack, I was trying to stay as silent as I could with my heart racing at such a pace. Your skin was so soft against mine, I was sitten. I don't recall not having that smae stupid smile spread across my face.

As soon as your were out of sight, everywhere I went, I walked with a skip in my step. You were constantly on mine mind, everyday that passed without you I was just picturing that traffic stopping smile in my mind. It's so easy to be happy when I know I have you.

I'm still so blinded by the fact that you're mine, I'm yours. We're each others. You are so incredible, your smile, your eyes, the way you hold yourself, your gentle voice and touch, your constant reassurance, you are everything. I will not let you go, I promise.

xo